化学式的爱情

感情真的像化学物品那样多变化
你永远猜不到会发生怎样的结果。。
它会随时间，人物，地点，性情,条件一直变下去。。
就连两个人爱的分量也会成为关键。。

一个人昨天才说多怕失去你
可是在今天，他却说性格不和的想分手
在半小时后，却说他说谎。。
他是爱你，却不想你辛苦。。

我开始怀疑。。
他有多了解我，有多爱我。。

感情。。真的有保障可言吗

Chemical formula of love

Feeling is really like kind chemicals
You can never tell what kind of results will happen. .
Its change by time, the characters, location, disposition, conditions. .
Even the love btw will be a key component. .

Someone said that he was so afraid of losing you yesterday
But today, he said break up because of the character..
In half an hour later, saying he lied. .
He is really love you, but do not want you to suffer. .

I began to wonder. .
How much he understand about me and how much his love in me. .

LOve really trustable ?

Just let it go

当我放手了，不爱了。。
你才说你爱了，不走了。。
我一直努力的保护你的幸福。。
那我自己的呢？
可不可以别这样自私呢？
可不可以放开我?
我真的不懂。。。

When I let go, don't fall into it . .
You only tell me you love me, u wanna stay. .
I have been efforts to protect your well-being. .what about mine ?
Can it be not so selfish?
can you just release me ?
thanks..

Bit too late to apologize

这几天不知自己干嘛。。。一直想起以前的人与事。。。
回头看，还真是做错了不少。。
昨天本来和我的ex约好要去喝个茶，见见面。。真的很久没见他了。。应该有三年了吧。。
我自己也不明白是怎样的心情去见他，只知道有种很想他的感觉。。
可是，我打了他电话整天。都没人接。。回也不回。。
直到2.23am他回了。。回了一封这样久来，他想问但从来都没问的事。。
他说本来驾着车来着，忽然感到害怕，想起从前的我们。。所以他回去了。。
他问我那时他说分手时，我到底是怎样的心情。。
我无言了。。我明知道那时的他只是想气我。。可是我却对他说好吧，就分吧。。
我很坏吧？
我又问他是不是还喜欢着我，这次换他无言。。因为他也不知道。
很想道歉，可是我知道没用。那疤痕不会我那句话而淡掉。。因为那晚我说了太多的对不起。。
他应该蛮辛苦吧，而我可以为他做的就是不再找他了。。我真不想他再疼，以前带给他的疼已够了

Looking back, is really a lot of mistakes. .
Yesterday I'm suppose to meet my ex for a drink. . really haven't seen him for more than 3 years... i don't know what kind of mood to see him, but i know I'm kinda miss him..

But I'm tried to call him, text him for whole day..There is no one answered. . I'm start to worry bout him..

2.23am
i received a text from him...He replied me with few questions he would like to ask in pass 3 years but never asked. .
He said that he was driving earlier planing go n see me, but somehow he felt doubtful and little scared..So he just went back home. .
He said I'm the first one to be that intimate with him, but he don't blame me anymore for now.. just fear to see me again..

He asked me why would i wanted to see him again.. and how i feel when he leave me when he said we're not suitable to be together...
i really have no answers for all this, i knew he not really wanted to broke off last time.. but I'm just..... sigh.... what i did...
I am very bad, right?

I asked him is he still like me, but i only hear silent, Because he did not know..

Thought of apologize, but I know its doesn't help.. That scar wont be lighten
because of 'I'm sorry'.. And I had said lot of sorry to him in pass . .
He should be pretty pain now, and all I can do for him is no longer looking for him again. . I really do not want to hurt him, see him in pain again.. the pain has been enough..

I'm listening Apologize by one republic

the First time

不知道為什麼今天突然很想为自己开个blog
也許....我希望有人会发现或会明白理解。。
或者...我真的很想找个明白我的人。。

最近是雨季...还真有点冷。。在这天气总会想起一些些人一些些事。。
我是干嘛。。 ==”

躺在床上，睡了整两个多月的床忽然觉得多了很多空间。。（ 真的是床变大？）
抱着枕頭闻到很熟悉味道。。是他的lotion。。好想知道他用什么牌子。。还真耐。。
刚刪除了每一封他发的短信。。但我發現自己还蛮天真。。真以为这样就可以忘记。。
哈哈。。。
算吧，别以为我是个情圣。。我只是有点想他而已。。。


Don't know why all of a sudden today，would like to open a blog for my own
maybe.... i wish someone will find and understand....
maybe ... i just need some friends to give me a warm hug...

its rainy season.... kinda cold..
In this weather.. we'll always flashback to pass
Lying on bed....
With a pillow smell very familiar with the taste. .its his lotion. . really curious know what brand it is. . Really resistant. . lol..
the mattress i used to slept in pass 2 months, suddenly feel lot more spaces.. 'SWT'

Just delete each message issued by him. . However, I find myself quite naive. . I thought this will be able to forget everything about him. .
But... don't get me wrong... am just suddenly think of him... that all... i still know where i am..
lets for the right person coming.